New Theme For September: Vulnerability

09/01/2014 · 4 comments

in Monthly Theme, Noa Gavin, Vulnerability

LOFB - NoaLast month was rough for me.

Real rough.

I underwent a lot of personal life changes, but more than that, I opened myself up to you guys.

I told you a story about myself that I hadn’t really shared with anyone. One that I wrote bolstered by anger, but in my right mind, probably would not have shared. The outpouring was…tremendous. I cried all day with the kind words and show of solidarity and support you guys showed to me, and to one another. It was touching in a way that I have never known.

I asked for your help when I was feeling down. You guys responded like gangbusters, and kept me laughing and smiling all day long.

I let myself be vulnerable. I let myself drop the normally perfectionistic exterior and show you who I really am.

Sometimes I’m afraid. Sometimes I’m downright terrified. I feel low sometimes. I hurt. I cry. I feel happy and sad and angry and fearful.

I feel.

It was a big moment for me, because letting yourself be vulnerable to people is terrifying. You’re allowing other people to know you deeply, truly, honestly in a way that is very disconcerting. It’s being honest with yourself to the point of brutal honesty with others about who you are and what you are going through. I hung myself out on a line.

And I learned something deep and profound:

All you motherfuckers love one another. Everyone cares. Everyone.

The world is not so cold that when you ask for help it will not be there. The world is not so cruel that when you are hurting, your friends and your family will not be there to help you, to guide you, to watch over you while you are vulnerable.

The world is so much more beautiful than I had ever thought.

So, this month, rather serendipitously, I encourage you to do the same. You don’t have to tell the internet (and as a result, friends and family all at the same time!) your secret, show them your vulnerability and your fear. You just have to show one person.

It may be your dog. Your friend. Your spouse.

It may be yourself.

But allowing yourself to feel vulnerable enables you to feel. To experience life for what it truly is instead of rushing to the imaginary finish line.

It’s so scary. It’s so worth it.

Today, share something with someone. It can even be me, if you want. Share how you’re feeling. Share what you want them to know about you. About themselves.

Just…share.

 

Desire September 1, 2014 at 5:35 am

Wow what an apt theme! I feel plenty vulnerable and afraid everyday, not for the reasons one might think, but rather because of where we live and the violent gratuitous crime we witness and live with every single day!
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alexandra September 1, 2014 at 5:31 pm

Yes, my closest friends have come from my realest moments.

That’s not to say, that this vulnerability thing is easy, though.
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Noa September 1, 2014 at 10:03 pm

Oh God no, it’s miserably difficult most of the time, but you’re right in that it will mean a lot more if you can fight through that difficulty.

Eric September 3, 2014 at 12:49 pm

I see a psychologist once a week and a psychiatrist every other week, and I get to spill all my bullshit in their laps. Mostly I get “mmm-hmm” or something equally meaningless followed at the end of the session by a bunch of questions they ask me that generally make me think “What in the hell does that have to do with ANYTHING”?

I have found my friends to be my best therapists ever. My close personal ones and my “never met in my life internet blogger friends”

It is definitely the most difficult thing I’ve ever done to admit that I was weak and I just didn’t have the energy to fight, but the support that comes back to me to let me know I’m not alone has definitely lightened the load.
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