This Post Sponsored By Deep Shame and Wilford Brimley’s Undying Rage

11/12/2012 · 67 comments

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I have a deeply engrained and impossible-to-kill addiction that I’ve been battling with my entire life.

It’s now become such a crippling addiction that I find myself afraid to attend parties, meetings, or even visiting friends for fear that it will trigger my habit and I will fall down the rabbit hole again. I have to learn to deal with it, and so I’m laying it out right now, for all of you to see and to hold me accountable.

I am addicted to store-bought chocolate cookies.

“Oh, imagine that, a woman who loves chocolate cookies,” you snicker. “I wonder if she also has PMS and is indecisive.” I AM ALL OF THOSE THINGS. And I am humiliated by it. I am a stereotypical lady through and through–I’m kind of ditzy, I cry when kids’ wishes come true, and I fucking love chocolate cookies.

Specifically, they have to be store-bought chocolate cookies. I won’t eat your homemade chocolate chunk amazeballs, and I don’t give a shit about how good everyone says they are. I don’t have time for your love and care and fluttery bullshit. I want my chocolate to taste like the stainless steel and hardened hearts of the Elves who forged them. I want a goddamned Thin Mint. An E.L. Fudge that kicks with a double-stuffed punch. I will even eat a fuckton of reduced-fat Oreos–the type that doesn’t split apart with any kind of decency. I have no qualms about any cookie–excluding the idea that they are all not currently in my face.

If I open a box of Chewy Chips Ahoy, I black out the instant that nebulously-brown-sugar-and-copper taste hits my lips and come-to an hour later with an empty box and a heart full of shame. I once ate an entire box of Pecan Sandies–which are just the FUCKING WORST–because these particular Sandies (which taste LIKE SAND) had chocolate chunks inside of them. For me, that’s like snorting coke out of a semen-covered bathmat. I’ll do it for the payoff, but I won’t enjoy it.

I will fuck up a snack table into an unrecognizable disaster zone.

Don’t invite me to your get-together if you’re gonna slap some Fudge Stripes on a platter and expect everyone to partake, because they are all for me. At every gathering, or truly, home where I have pantry-raiding respectability, I will scope out your store-bought chocolate cookie situation and I will strategize and attack until every single last one of those delicious buttery bastards is in my gullet. I will have embarrassed myself and everyone in acquaintance with me long before then, but I cannot control this.

I will stalk the snack selection of your gathering, making quick rounds through a couple of three-line conversations until I can swing back by and grab a cookie or two, sandwich them, unhinge my jaw, and roar with completion. I repeat these steps as necessary until I’m high off the knowledge that all the terrible chocolate is mine, and no one else can enjoy its simple plasticine feel and explosively-amazing taste.

For the most part, I’m pretty good about choosing not to buy my own cookies. I keep my pantry cookie-free, because I know the downward spiral I face if I keep them stocked. It was literally the highlight of my weekend that I purchased a box of Fudge Stripes and knew I could eat them without judgement because Adrian was gone and my dog’s moral compass is pretty iffy. I’m considering how many meals I can replace with them until my heart gives up out of spite.

I have a problem. And I don’t even care if I never stop.

This was my entire Friday. 

Have any weird addictions to a certain type of food or craft or show or other such nonsense?

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Winopants November 12, 2012 at 6:18 am

My weird obsession is fast food chicken sandwiches. The kind with suspect meat patties that threaten to contain discernible pieces of chicken anatomy; with paper-thin microwaved strips of bacon, so congealed and brightly red they look like meat taffy; gooped with mayo that has been thickened with additives and reduced by careless over-exposure to grease-filled kitchen air; all sandwiched between an innocent, lily white bun. Oh yeah.
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Noa November 13, 2012 at 9:29 pm

Excuse me. I need to run to Wendy’s.

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hyzymom November 12, 2012 at 6:44 am

Red Vines Red Licorice… is my crack. NOT stupid shitty Twizzlers. RED FUCKING VINES. I will eat in one sitting everyone piece in the house, doesn’t matter if it’s a single serving or a Costco 5lb tub! I will eat and eat and tell myself “only one more” until every morsel is gone. I will make myself nauseous and sick and keep eating. I once came out of my red licorice induced fugue long enough to realize I need to throw the rest of the 5lb tub away before I killed myself. I also knew I had to throw it away in the outside trash can with the lid off because I knew in my tweaking heart if I threw them away in the kitchen trash can, I WOULD dig through that trash can later to find and consume them! I need a Red Vines Intervention!

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Noa November 13, 2012 at 9:32 pm

I don’t understand Red Vines. I’ve tried, but they taste like plastic, and I hate them.

That said, show me a Pull’N'Peel Twizzler and I will show you true love.

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Mayor Gia November 12, 2012 at 7:00 am

OMG I LOOOVVEE store bought pecan sandies. I”m pretty sure they actaully put just a tiny bit of crack in them.
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Noa November 13, 2012 at 9:37 pm

Gross. So, so gross. Like tossing the salad of the Gobi Desert.

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Rachel November 12, 2012 at 9:11 am

I go through phases with my addictions, and right now it’s pumpkin. Pumpkin spice lattes, pumpkin spice cookies, pumpkin bread, sweet cinnamon pumpkin body wash/lotion/spray, pumpkin spice car air freshner, pumpkin spice lip balm, pumpkin spice coffee creamer, pumpkin marshmallow Scentsy cubes, pumpkin chili, pumpkin soup…how I’m not completely orange and fat is a fucking pumpkin miracle.

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Noa November 13, 2012 at 9:43 pm

I have never understood the whole pumpkin thing, but I think Pumpkin is the grossest thing ever. Someone handed me a muffin I did not know was pumpkin once, and it also had raisins in it, and I immediately assumed they hated me upon the first bite.

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Bill G. November 14, 2012 at 12:41 pm

My wife loves to get pumpkin shakes when restaurants and malt shops trot them out in the fall. I don’t get that, either, but I guess everybody’s gotta do their own thing.

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Bill G. November 12, 2012 at 9:40 am

I have the same problems with Ding Dongs. At the store, I have to steel myself as I walk past them and they mock me. Damn you, Ding Dongs.

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Noa November 13, 2012 at 9:44 pm

Not a fan. I will mess up a box of those Little Debbie brownies though.

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nadine November 12, 2012 at 9:41 am

I love Pepsi Throwback so much. I can’t be trusted around it. If i have a 12-can pack, I will drink it all back to back and drink nothing but that. I love the sugar so much, it is the most delicious drink in the world to me. I really need to stop. I’m gonna get diabeetus from this shit and I should care but I don’t. It’s only the shame that makes me self-conscious. The sweet, sugary shame of wanting to drink in a kidney-bean-shaped pool of sugar water.
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Bill G. November 12, 2012 at 9:49 am

Right on. If Mt. Dew Throwback was crack, I’d be dead already.

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Noa November 13, 2012 at 9:47 pm

Soda is a slippery slope for me. I can’t have just one. If I have one Dr. Pepper for the first drink of the day, that’s all I’m gonna drink.

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nadine November 14, 2012 at 5:20 pm

Me too, it’s like why even bother with water, what is the point, I have all this soda.

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Bill G. November 12, 2012 at 9:45 am

Wilford Brimley. Hmmm, I’m not so sure I want to take nutritional advice from a guy shaped like a 1979 AMC Pacer. But this vid is proof that when he talks diabetes, he knows his shit: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ILIvPzyK_8I

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Tans November 12, 2012 at 3:26 pm

Yes, Wilford Brimley is America’s foremost authority on “Diabetus”.
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Noa November 13, 2012 at 9:48 pm

Just like Jenny McCarthy knows Autism.

Also, that video? Amazing.

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Tans November 12, 2012 at 9:48 am

Store bought, you bake chocolate chip cookies.

I have the luxury of being married to a firefighter who is gone for 24 hours at a time when he’s on shift. Because I am not a good sharer, I reserve the purchasing of these to those days when he won’t be home. Thank the universe that there’s only a dozen in there, but still, I’m pretty sure I’m on the fast track to Wilford Brimley talking directly to me during the Price is Right…
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Noa November 13, 2012 at 9:51 pm

Remember when they used to sell those in just tubs? They knew we weren’t gonna bake ‘em. They knew it was only a more efficient way to dig it out with a spoon.

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Janene November 12, 2012 at 9:54 am

Coca-Cola. That is my crack. I can sit down and drink an insane amount of that without blinking an eye. Terrible. I’d almost kicked the habit about 6 years ago, but then I started my Masters degree, and working full time + part-time fast-tracked masters degree = sleep-deprived individual = full-on Coke habit.

As an indication of how bad it is, I keep my “at work” stash in the trunk of my car. That way, I’m not tempted to drink more than what I bring into the office. Doesn’t help that there’s a cafeteria downstairs, but at least I have to *work* for it then…..

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Noa November 13, 2012 at 9:52 pm

Hey, you have a workaround. That’s important for those of us with hopeless junk addictions.

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Jess November 12, 2012 at 10:43 am

It’s the combo deal of Pepsi and Cheetos for me. Really the best combination ever. The fake anthrax-filled cheddar goodness with the crunch factor, combined with the sweet bubbly beverage just warms my soul. If the bag of Cheetos is too small (i.e. the snack pack size), I will buy another one, and not feel ashamed. I even love the cheese residue it leaves on your fingers as you eat them. It doesn’t matter the time of day either, because I would thoroughly enjoy this combination in my homeroom in High School. Yes, this is the addiction that has lasted over 10 years, and I will still have it decades from now, and it will be fabulous.

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Noa November 13, 2012 at 9:55 pm

Ever tried Flamin’ Hot Cheetos and Dr. Pepper?

It only takes one. Like the Blue Stuff from Breaking Bad.

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Jen November 12, 2012 at 11:11 am

I am a whore for any reality series on A&E. ‘Parking Wars’? Yes, please. ‘Storage Wars’? I would be delighted. ‘Intervention’. Why, thank you, kind sir. When the new season of ‘Doomsday Preppers’ starts on National Geographic to complete my quadfectra of shame it will likely cause a black hole of awesome that will obliterate the planet as we know it. Be prepared…
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Noa November 14, 2012 at 1:51 am

I miss Doomsday Preppers so much. I spend so much of my day wondering why I’m so lazy when they’re prepping so hard for…probably nothing.

Also, those Amish assholes make me look like shit.

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Bill G. November 14, 2012 at 12:48 pm

They were showing a marathon of Parking Wars this weekend. Each episode just rolls right into another one without a commercial. It was 2 hours later before I even knew it.

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Dana the Biped November 12, 2012 at 1:12 pm

Dude. This read like cookie porn. Please publish–I would buy the shit out of cookie porn.
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Noa November 14, 2012 at 1:52 am

Are diabetes vibrators a thing?

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Carrie - Cannibalistic Nerd November 12, 2012 at 3:44 pm

“I took the Halloween candy to the office because Carrie would eat all of it otherwise.” – My mom. Just because something is entirely true doesn’t mean she should have taken the candy to the office.
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Noa November 14, 2012 at 1:56 am

And that reasoning is why Adrian no longer buys Oreos if he wants to eat any.

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Wendi November 12, 2012 at 3:52 pm

Everyone knows boobs and cookies are best when they’re store bought. God speed, Madame.

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Noa November 14, 2012 at 1:57 am

Goddamn. Iced tea is no good for the sinuses.

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nadine November 12, 2012 at 4:51 pm

my other obsession is trying new foods. not like “worldly cuisine” but whatever the new McShit is I will try. If i see a commercial for a new smoothie or sandwich or anything, I immediately want it just to try it.
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Noa November 14, 2012 at 1:59 am

I suck at that. I like 1 thing off the menu at every restaurant I visit, and I will only order that one thing every single time. God help them if they’re out of it that day. NO NEW FOODS.

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Elyn November 12, 2012 at 5:54 pm

Fabric. Natural fibers only, please. I have a closet that’s getting ready to burst and vomit out a glorious stream of silk, linen, and wool. I began with the best of intentions, of course. I am a medieval reenactor, so there really ARE plans for every bit of luscious yardage. Some of them I even remember.
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Noa November 14, 2012 at 2:00 am

Oh man, you had me so happy reading this. I fucking love silk and cashmere and all that fancy shit. If my husband wears one of his cashmere sweaters, I become a sweater tumor; I refuse to let go. I need to go snuggle a scarf for a bit.

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Misty November 12, 2012 at 7:03 pm

Ruffles Cheddar & Sour Cream chips. I can Hoover an entire family sized bag of those things in one sitting. Complete with snorting the remaining crumbs like the biggest coke fiend ever. That is why those salty devil chips are never allowed in my home. I will leap off of that wagon and right onto that horse so fast……
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Noa November 14, 2012 at 2:00 am

Oh man. Do Ruffles have meth in them? I will fuck up a bag of Ruffle’s Barbecue.

And recently did. Like…today.

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Bill G. November 14, 2012 at 12:53 pm

If I had unlimited access to Ruffles, I’d wind up like one of those people that get so big they have to be cut out of their house and taken to the hospital on a flatbed truck.

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Jessica November 12, 2012 at 7:30 pm

I have learned a tough life lesson about taking Wilford Brimley’s name in vain…the week after I shared your amazing “What if I told you….DIABEETUS” pic on facebook, my damn cat got diagnosed with the DIABEETUS! I am certain it is Wilford’s cosmic karma kicking my ass every morning and evening when I pin the cat to the table and stab her with insulin. Be careful out there people!

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Noa November 14, 2012 at 2:01 am

I had no idea Brimley was such a hardass Karma redeemer. I just posted a Diabeetus dance mix earlier today. I am afraid.

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Bill G. November 14, 2012 at 12:56 pm

Now I’m scared because I sent a few people a link to the Wilford Brimley Dance Mix video. I just had my cholesterol and blood sugar tested and it’s all good, but I just recently turned 40, so shit can go bad in a hurry.

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Chiconky November 12, 2012 at 10:32 pm

I’d never before thought about what it would be like to snort coke out of a semen-covered bath mat. Now the image seems to be tattooed on the inside of my brain like the most fucked-up screen saver ever. So thanks for that.

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Noa November 14, 2012 at 2:02 am

Anytime. It helps if you imagine me snorting cookies.

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peej November 13, 2012 at 5:51 am

3 minute conversation cycles through the room before returning? Rookie error. While you’re cycling through the room, trying to maintain a semblance of decency, people like me are camping by the food station. We rely on your regular room cycles to ensure a steady stream of conversation to give the illusion that we’re socialising. But really, we’re just letting you do all the work for us while we never leave the side of the food, the glorious, glorious food.

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Noa November 14, 2012 at 2:02 am

SON OF A BITCH.

Teach me, wise one.

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Valerie November 13, 2012 at 7:52 pm

If I am anywhere in the vicinity of fresh baked warm chocolate chip cookies, I will immediately grab the hot tray and pour the scalding contents into my mouth. I have made more kids cry because of this behavior than I can count.

Hugs!

Valerie
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Noa November 14, 2012 at 2:02 am

Those bastards can’t buy the ingredients–they don’t deserve the cookies.

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Tracy November 14, 2012 at 3:11 pm

Have you seen the new Dark Chocolate Fudge Stripes?

I needed some of those plain chocolate wafers to crush and mix-in to my homemade ice cream recently and my husband came home from the store with these instead. I was so pissed (a la “what the fuck is this substitute cookie bullshit?”). Then I ate one or 12. So good.
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Noa November 15, 2012 at 1:09 am

WHUT.

No.

I have to own them all.

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non-girlfriend November 15, 2012 at 5:37 pm

Frozen Ding Dongs. I hope those Hostess strikers went back to work today because I don’t have enough room in my freezer to really stock up.
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Noa November 16, 2012 at 9:37 pm

I feel for you today.

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Jess November 16, 2012 at 10:01 am

Oh god…it’s stupid $5 Starbucks iced mochas for me. I’m there every goddamn day…and the Starbucks people laugh at me for ordering iced coffee in the middle of -7,000 degrees (aka winter in MN). Sigh. I try sometimes to make a SERIOUS effort to substitute home-brewed (is that like coffeeshine?) with mocha cream and ice. FAIL FAIL FAIL.

Also: laughed my butt off at “I don’t have time for your love and care and fluttery bullshit.”
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Noa November 16, 2012 at 9:38 pm

I have tried, so hard, to like coffee. It’s one of those things I feel like I should like–Gin, Hot Cocoa, How I Met Your Mother–but I just don’t.

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Delfin Joaquin Paris III November 18, 2012 at 10:57 am

If Russell Stover factors into this equation, you are not forgiven.
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Noa November 19, 2012 at 12:58 am

Gross.

Who do you think I am, a whore?

You know what? Let’s drop that last question.

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Delfin Joaquin Paris III November 20, 2012 at 12:47 pm

Look, all I know is that I nailed you in the fanny a few times at BlogHer.
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Noa November 21, 2012 at 12:40 am

I WONDERED WHO THAT WAS.

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Caroline November 19, 2012 at 5:01 pm

Eating ketchup potato chips while compulsively checking fantasy football news. All. The. Fucking. Time. I’m not a *huge* fan of those Lay’s “spicy ketchup” ones from the grocery store, so I order various brands online. My boyfriend finds this ridiculous and has called me “culturally confused.” Let me eat my Canadian chips and study NFL stats in peace!

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Noa November 21, 2012 at 12:41 am

I’m so jealous of your ketchup chips. So miserably jealous.

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Stephanie November 29, 2012 at 1:12 pm

Jesus, I had to come back and tell you this. I was reading this post last week, laughing my ass off, and my husband asked what was up. I tell him I’m reading a funny blog post, but not what it was actually about, silently wishing I had some cookies. A little while later he goes to the store for dinner fixins. Hours later we are upstairs putting on some pj’s to do some serious t.v. watching and I keep thinking “I wish when Dom went to the store he would come home with cookies. Just once.” I head downstairs to plunk my ass on the couch and he proclaims that he bought cookies! WE DO NOT BUY COOKIES AT THE STORE BECAUSE WE EAT THOSE FUCKERS TOO FAST. Like ever. He somehow knew, without me saying a word, that it was cookie day at our house. Bless that man.

All that to say, my real downfall is fucking chips. Sour cream and “anything” chips. Or Roastin’ Chicken flavour. I can eat an entire family bag myself, feeling sick along the way, yet not stopping. We only buy them VERY occasionally, and I have to tell my husband to put them away as I am physically incapable of stopping on my own.
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Noa December 13, 2012 at 8:17 pm

Your husband is a god.

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Melodie February 7, 2013 at 2:34 pm

It may not be weird, but I am currently on my third re-watch of a TV show.

That I just rewatched all 7 seasons of.

Less than a month ago.

I’m having a bit of a siuation.

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Melodie February 7, 2013 at 2:51 pm

(Whoa Melodie that it totally fucking weird. Calm that shit down.)

ALSO. Food-wise? Cosmic fucking brownies. I will eat all 6 packets within the span of two days. It would be one, but I fight every time I open the cabinet. 3 a day is my limit, and even that’s way too much. At least I know I’m not alone.

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